I always get nervous when I have to do something medical that I have never done before...
Today I will be having my first Ekg heart monitoring...
It's making my heart skip a beat...
My Heart will go on...(better with less weight)
Getting to the Heart of the matter...
Have a Heart...(Hope they find I have one)
It Is What It Is...
Monday, June 28, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I Want To Say... SURE
One of first things I had to do in this journey of mine was to fill out a soul searching questionnaire asking everything needed to determine if I would be a candidate for this surgery.
When I reached the question "Why do YOU want to lose weight?" It really got me thinking...
Of course I want all the obvious, better health, more energy etc... but then I realized the true reason why I want to lose weight...
I want to say... SURE!!!
"Troy, Come up stairs to see this..." Sure...
"Want to hold the baby in your lap?" Sure...
"Want to go for a walk?" Sure...
"Want to go to a musical at a vintage theater?" Sure...
"Want to take an airplane ride?" Sure...
"Want to ride a roller coaster?" Sure...
"Can you get up on that step stool and help me paint" Sure
"Want to take a stroll with on the beach and climb some rocks?" Sure...
"Here, take a seat" Sure...
"Want to take an exercise class with me?" Sure...
"Want to stand up in front of a crowd and speak at our ladies event?" Sure...
I try to pretend that I am not limited by my weight but the more I think about it this list can go on and on...
Why do I want to lose weight? Because I want to say... SURE
When I reached the question "Why do YOU want to lose weight?" It really got me thinking...
Of course I want all the obvious, better health, more energy etc... but then I realized the true reason why I want to lose weight...
I want to say... SURE!!!
"Troy, Come up stairs to see this..." Sure...
"Want to hold the baby in your lap?" Sure...
"Want to go for a walk?" Sure...
"Want to go to a musical at a vintage theater?" Sure...
"Want to take an airplane ride?" Sure...
"Want to ride a roller coaster?" Sure...
"Can you get up on that step stool and help me paint" Sure
"Want to take a stroll with on the beach and climb some rocks?" Sure...
"Here, take a seat" Sure...
"Want to take an exercise class with me?" Sure...
"Want to stand up in front of a crowd and speak at our ladies event?" Sure...
I try to pretend that I am not limited by my weight but the more I think about it this list can go on and on...
Why do I want to lose weight? Because I want to say... SURE
It Is What It Is...
No one likes to go to the Doctors but last year I was really hesitant to go for my annual check up. I was feeling horrible and thought "Troy, you are a walking time bomb" I was sure I had it all, Diabetes, High Blood Pressure, High Cholesterol... The works.
But God gave me words of encouragement and told me "It Is What It Is". Hiding and avoiding the doctor would not make the problem go away, I had to face it, so I went, did every test that was asked of me and prayed about the outcome.
My Doctor said "Of course you feel bad, you are anemic and need iron" That I can do!
Everything else was fine.
It Is What It Is... Hope God's Word encourages you too...
But God gave me words of encouragement and told me "It Is What It Is". Hiding and avoiding the doctor would not make the problem go away, I had to face it, so I went, did every test that was asked of me and prayed about the outcome.
My Doctor said "Of course you feel bad, you are anemic and need iron" That I can do!
Everything else was fine.
It Is What It Is... Hope God's Word encourages you too...
Lord, Please Bless Me Today...
I am in week 10 of my 12 week course and I was told it was time for me to get my pre-op lab work done.
I really hate driving to my doctor's office, It is always very crowded and you can never find a parking place... blah blah blah. Let's face it, no one ever likes to go get lab work done...EWWWWWW Needles...
Except for one time, my girlfriend and I both needed to get some lab work done and decided to go together. We joked and laughed the entire time saying things like "Who has more fun than us" and having a "Who had more blood drawn" contest (She won cause she also had to pee in a cup)...
Moving on...
Well, of course I was a little anxious but then I remembered God's re-assuring words to me "It Is What It Is" and I was fine. When I parked I said a little prayer over this part of my journey and simply asked "Lord, please Bless me today"
As usual it was very crowded and I almost left. "It Is What It Is" OK, I will go in...
To my surprise, there was no line in the lab and my number was called before I even finished my Peeing in the cup (Catching up to you Sue). I noticed one of the Phlebotomists had personalized her area with pictures of Cats and I thought to myself,"She's the one for me" Sure enough she called me over and started taking blood galore (12 vials YIKES!) We were chatting and she asked if I were having Bypass Surgery and I said yes. She then told me that she has never regretted her decision to have the surgery two years ago, we talked a little more and found we even share the same doctor whom she says doesn't give out Bariatric referrals lightly. She was so uplifting and encouraging and again told me it was the best decision she has ever made...I just had to give her a hug.
I then had to get my blood pressure taken in another part of the building. The nurse asked me why I came in and when I told her about myself she asked "Will you be having your procedure in San Diego?" Come to find out, she also had had the surgery, she went on to again confirm it was the best decision she had ever made and was amazingly informative,encouraging and uplifting. Gave her a hug too.
When I got to my car I was crying, I felt so blessed, grateful, and more confident in my decision than ever.
Thank you Lord for Blessing me. There are hundreds of workers in that office, and you guided me to two encouraging Angels named Wanda and Dianne...
All I can say is... Wow!
I really hate driving to my doctor's office, It is always very crowded and you can never find a parking place... blah blah blah. Let's face it, no one ever likes to go get lab work done...EWWWWWW Needles...
Except for one time, my girlfriend and I both needed to get some lab work done and decided to go together. We joked and laughed the entire time saying things like "Who has more fun than us" and having a "Who had more blood drawn" contest (She won cause she also had to pee in a cup)...
Moving on...
Well, of course I was a little anxious but then I remembered God's re-assuring words to me "It Is What It Is" and I was fine. When I parked I said a little prayer over this part of my journey and simply asked "Lord, please Bless me today"
As usual it was very crowded and I almost left. "It Is What It Is" OK, I will go in...
To my surprise, there was no line in the lab and my number was called before I even finished my Peeing in the cup (Catching up to you Sue). I noticed one of the Phlebotomists had personalized her area with pictures of Cats and I thought to myself,"She's the one for me" Sure enough she called me over and started taking blood galore (12 vials YIKES!) We were chatting and she asked if I were having Bypass Surgery and I said yes. She then told me that she has never regretted her decision to have the surgery two years ago, we talked a little more and found we even share the same doctor whom she says doesn't give out Bariatric referrals lightly. She was so uplifting and encouraging and again told me it was the best decision she has ever made...I just had to give her a hug.
I then had to get my blood pressure taken in another part of the building. The nurse asked me why I came in and when I told her about myself she asked "Will you be having your procedure in San Diego?" Come to find out, she also had had the surgery, she went on to again confirm it was the best decision she had ever made and was amazingly informative,encouraging and uplifting. Gave her a hug too.
When I got to my car I was crying, I felt so blessed, grateful, and more confident in my decision than ever.
Thank you Lord for Blessing me. There are hundreds of workers in that office, and you guided me to two encouraging Angels named Wanda and Dianne...
All I can say is... Wow!
Giant Chairs
Different people carry their extra "Volume" in different parts of their bodies. I have tendency to have a full "downstairs" or as I call it, my Aunt Edna's A_ _.
One of the areas this weight distribution effects me the most is when I go to sit in a chair, sometimes I just don't fit. Sure it is embarrassing and is definitely on my "Reasons I want to lose weight" list but that's just the way I am...(For Now)
Recently, I was nervous when Steve told me I would be getting a Mini Cooper to drive, I was worried if my Maxi Hiney would fit in the Mini... Well, it did...
My Insurance carrier has a very thorough and involved education program when it comes to Weight Loss Surgery and the first step is orientation class.
I will never forget when I walked into the classroom and noticed that the chairs provided for us were armchairs. I thought to myself "this is just cruel" UNTIL... I got a closer look and discovered these were the biggest chairs ever!
Plenty of room for Aunt Edna and then-some... After the class I went into the restroom and two women were discussing the class...
Woman one "Well, what did you think of the class?"
Woman two "It was good, But did you ever see such huge chairs!!"
Troy Giggling...
First step on my very dignified and thoughtful journey
One of the areas this weight distribution effects me the most is when I go to sit in a chair, sometimes I just don't fit. Sure it is embarrassing and is definitely on my "Reasons I want to lose weight" list but that's just the way I am...(For Now)
Recently, I was nervous when Steve told me I would be getting a Mini Cooper to drive, I was worried if my Maxi Hiney would fit in the Mini... Well, it did...
My Insurance carrier has a very thorough and involved education program when it comes to Weight Loss Surgery and the first step is orientation class.
I will never forget when I walked into the classroom and noticed that the chairs provided for us were armchairs. I thought to myself "this is just cruel" UNTIL... I got a closer look and discovered these were the biggest chairs ever!
Plenty of room for Aunt Edna and then-some... After the class I went into the restroom and two women were discussing the class...
Woman one "Well, what did you think of the class?"
Woman two "It was good, But did you ever see such huge chairs!!"
Troy Giggling...
First step on my very dignified and thoughtful journey
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Climbing Stairs
Imagine carrying (or trying to carry) three 50lb bags of cement up stairs...
Of course it would be very difficult to physically carry that much weight up stairs,but our bodies are amazing and somehow it can be done.
Well, that's about what it is like to be me....
I have tried dieting for years and the most I can do on my own is lose 30 lbs. The dieting cycle for me is always the same, enthusiastic at first, then for some reason, the enthusiasm fades and the weight comes back on. I am not alone in this cycle, I have observed many of my girlfriends struggling the same as I do, they continually fight the same 20lbs and I have realized that the numbers are all relative and their struggle is the same as mine. I have accepted the limits of my willpower, I do not feel that I am weak or defeated, I Troy Miller just need a stronger tool that will help me achieve what we all want to have and maintain...A healthy body weight.
So,after much prayer, many years of carrying this weight, and bearing this burden, I have made the decision to have Gastric Bypass Weight Loss Surgery
In May 2009 I expressed interest in the surgery to my doctor, she has known me for several years and she is well aware of my struggles. I explained my reasoning to her and she said three years ago she would never have approved it but now she could tell I am ready for the challenge so she gave me the referral to begin the process required by my insurance.
In January, God gave me a word for this year "Anticipate". I have been facing the entire year with this word in mind,so I was ready when the call came in for me to begin the journey.
Excited,no. Ready yes...
Anticipation...
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